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Don't read this blog as a comparison of your own life. I've been breathing for 16 years. Has great friends & family. Just recently found out that I'm half Italian. The one thing I can't live without is music and friends. I would take a bullet for the one I love. I believe in God, and I love him with all my heart.

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13.11.09 Friday

So yeah. It's been like 1 week since I updated yet it feels like forever. I just didn't have the urge to write about my life lately.
It's just that, it's been all sad stuff. I don't like remembering things like that. But anyway, briefly,

I just finished my exams. Feel happy but then what am I going to do during my holidays? Normal people would be enjoying but I've already decided that Imma take that opportunity to buck up on my form4 subjects cuz' I know I'm damn weak. Whatever la, I hope I wont drop this idea again. xD I've been studying alot actually for my finals. And during my Accounts paper, I didn't have enough time to finish doing it. I cried alot, obviously tried not to cry infront of my friends but still, a few drop of tears came out. Sorry, I don't like you guys seeing me like this.

Oh speaking of my friends. Today, to them was awesome. In the morning when I heard about what Sookmei told me I just became really moody. I couldn't accept it. Haih~ I got played. GAH! Also I just felt as though, whenever my friends were sad I was always there for them. But when I was in a bad mood, they didn't even bother asking why. I feel so dissapointed. I mean, they were playing laughing joking and stuff while I was in one corner being miserable. I hate being unhappy because when I get moody, I think alot and when I think alot, facts all come out and the truth is usually revealed. I just wonder if my friends.... are just temporary. I don't think they have ever proved anything to me to actually convince me that they are my REAL FRIENDS. I don't know, am I just abit stupid for trusting them so much, loving and caring for them too much is just gonna hurt me; is that so? My friends are my life, I can't live without them but if this is how they are going to be then, I'd rather be on my own than lie to myself about who my friends are. I feel as if my life is a total LIE and I am living in a life that is what THEY want me to live. You guys want the best for me, I know that. But weather temporary or not, they have made my high-school experience unforgettable. Thanks again.

Let's not get into more details on that topic aite? It's just heartbreaking.

Remeniscing in the memories that My friends and I share is always an awesome experience. Never a dull moment in our lives. xD

In an unrelated topic, I'M SICK! I'M FINALLY SICK! AFTER 5MONTHS OF BEING HEALTHY I'M FINALLY SICK! I don't know to be happy or sad! xD I feel so unnormal when I didn't get sick and now that I am sick I feel like I'm gonna die. Yeah, I'm totally not use to getting sick at all. xD My mom doesn't seem to care at all, she just said I'll survive and left me to rott. Oh, but if it was my bro or sis, she'd be like "OMG ARE U OKAY?" bla bla bla....pffft~ typical mothers.

You know, recently. I've been like really stressed out because of my exams and I've been really exausted. And no1 seems to understand that I need time to reboot myself and get myself up and around again after such an intense weak of exams, ya get me? I'm in this diema where my family doesn't understand me at all! My sister has been so selfish, she's like... totally unfair!!!!

She's supposedly been doing alot of house chores and stuff like that. And I'm the lazy one. Yeah, I'm lazy, SAYS YOU!

Do you have any idea how tiring it is to get up at 4 45 am just to clean the fcking dishes that YOU GUYS ARE TOO FCKING LAZY TO WASH AT NIGHT! If you used it, you wash it OK! Why should I be responsible for something like that. Coming back from a long day of school and needing the wash down the balcony and wash the dishes is fine. BUT AFTER THAT, it isnt my responsibility to wash up again because it's not me that used those utensils ok! Don't bloody well blame me for CICAKS fiesting on the leftovers in the sink, it is something that YOU COULD PREVENT FROM HAPPENING ASWELL, AITE! I get home, I do my chores and I nap. If the house is dirty because of the dogs when I wake up it doesn't mean I was too lazy to clean up. IT'S BECAUSE I WAS BLOODY WELL ASLEEP OKAY! I DO NOT NEED TO HEAR "ASH DID EVERYTHING AGAIN TODAY BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO LAZY TO DO IT!" like , EVERY SINGLE DAY! I'm tired of your crap. And lethargic, I'm sick. Can't you guys give me a break. You guys constantly make me want to cry. But whats the point?

Noone cares, Noone WANTS to care. Noone UNDERSTANDS.

30.10.09

Yeah so I know that I've not been updating a whole load recently. It's only because I'm trying to put my studies 1st, I know this is a very important year for me and I don't wanna blow it completely out the window like a piece of used tissue.

Actually, I didn't get to do much studying because our teacher didn't exactly give us the support to study. Our teachers couldn't care less of how we turned out to be, especially my maths and add maths teacher. She doesn't give 2 shits about me.

These few days at school was mainly, ONLINE ONLINE & ONLINE. Barely got to study, so I depended on studying at home. Which I am proud to say, I succesfully did.

Today was the 1st day of my finals. It wasn't that bad considering the fact that it could have been much worse. Moral, was quite easy, but yet it was hard because of the moral values that almost have the same meaning. It's so hard to determine the value for the cases given. Anyways, I'm just happy I didn't leave out ANY blanks at all. Maybe I'd get some marks for that. xD FAT CHANCE.

Anyhoos, after our exam we went to the library to "study". LOL, I was such a good girl, bringing my sejarah notes into the library to read. Ended up playing with steph's phone. xD The racing thingy. Lame, I kept hitting the walls and stuff. Idiotic.

After school, Nadia, Manda and I went to A.P. to supposedly buy food and leave the damned place. We ended up sitting around with Andrew and stuff. Ish, He annoys me to the highest heavens but still he's so adorable. xD Nadia is lucky to have him as a brother. That isn't important, what important is the fact that Nadia was in such bad luck today. She kept dropping stuff. xD

For instance, we were buying ice cream right, and she dropped it. TWICE. xD there goes rm2. No biggie, but it was hilarious to see her facial expression when the ice cream droppped. xD They bought 3 large fries, one for each of us and I was just waiting to eat the fries. HAHA, I've been addicted to fries for somewhat 1 week.

They are going for their school carnival tomorrow, I'm going to be studying at home. Have fun, guys!

WORD OF THE DAY: TENEBROUS (dark/gloomy)

26.10.09 Monday

I haven't been updating at all lately but this, I must keep note of!

Uncle Gordon just broke the news to me today that they had found my biological dad's nationality. It's not much but it means alot to me!

I am proud to say that I am half Chinese and half ITALIAN!

can you believe it?

My dad is actually an Italian sailor that came to Malaysia.

I'm one step closer to knowing who he really is. <3

Sweet dreams tonight.

17.10.09 Saturday

sitting around all day doing nothing is so boring.

i dont feel well!

15.10.09 Thursday

CONGRATULATIONS JOANNE, FOR TURNING 17 YEARS CLOSER TO 21!

freedom shall be redeemed then!

I'm gonna miss you when you're not around to bully me next year. <3

Joanne has been known for her crazy creativity.

Jo-anneh, don't evah change because we love you the way you are.

just so you know.

you're; awesome, funny, loving, unreplacable & on high-demand.

J O A N N E

ILY.

15.10.09

LOL, hey readers! Today we did not study, at all! It feels as if we are the ones free from exam. xD Like the form 3s'. Well, here's how my day went..

During the 1st period of class, we went to the library as Pn. Salma was conducting the new students registration thingy. I was so happy because on the last day of school EVERYONE came! MY WHOLE GANG, 7 PEOPLE ALL CAME TODAY! Cheah meng meng(nick name i call her) came back from singapore today! Although no souveniers but she brought us food, equally good as well. xD So happy because we could spend the last day together. We were so hyper the whole time, planning our vacations/outings together. LOL, although they might not all happen, but it is so fun to just laugh about what the situation would be like if it really did happen, and all of a sudden Manda just had to inform us that she FARTED and make us all disgusted with her weird and random thoughts and her way of expressing it. Hehe~

It was kind of obvious that with that much of laughing there was sure to be noise! YES, and we totally got into trouble, I got into even more trouble because i am a LIBRARIAN! xD I didn't care. The teacher walked to us, and at first she asked "class mana? class saya ke?", at the same time she was nodding her head and she was biting her finger abit. We couldn't hear a thing and so to us she was like, nodding and biting her finger at us. xD Like, really stupidly. It can only be funneh if you saw the facial expression that was on SookMei's face. Her jaws dropped and she looked silly-ly at the teacher and she said "ANGGERIK". xD What in the world possesed her to say anggerik, where as we are DAHLIA i dont know.LOL, while she was answering her eyeballs were like moving up and down because teacher was nodding. xD so funneh i tell you! Well after the teacher left, we started to talk bad about her and yeah, she looked back at us and gave us an ugleh face! xD But what did we care? xD Even the way she walked made us hate her so much, she walked as if she was some kind of "DAI LOU". get it? xD on the way out we were following the way she walked.

Anyhoos, after Pn Salma's period we had maths, that was exchanged with science. Pn. Jun had to rush of to prepare for her open house today so she told me that it was okay if we went to the theatre room and just finish our work while watching movies. It was totally awesome. Being the freakishly freaky freaks that we are, we sat on the floor and started to chat away! xD.

Manda was screaming and screaming because of the so called "scary ghost" that was like, totally funneh to me! xD I was sleeping on her lap and my legs were on sookmei's legs. Awesome way to relax eh? hehe. I was actually tired so i decided to use my blazer as a matress kind of thing and slept on top of it. Sook mei, cheah meng and cheng mun started wrapping me up with their blazers and tie-ing me in knots as if i was a baby and wasn't allowed to ponder around. I was seriously wondering what goes through their minds to come up with some kind of weird stunt such as that. xD, i couldn't help but think that they were INSANE/CRAZY.

After rehat, we went back to the theatre room and continued our movies, but this time, we decided that we wanted to go to the PAS to go online. Just as we got in, and logged in facebook for a few minutes, a teacher came and told us that she wanted to use the PAS, it wasn't fair because we were the ones that booked it 1st! So unfair and we were forced to leave. To our suprise, the teacher knew how to speak chinese, and apparently understood cantonese and hokkien. Such a show off. she was like " I understand what you guys are saying" in chinese. xD as if we were saying something bad about her! Tolong larh, no time to mengumpat about you! xD We just went back to class and continued chatting and in no time at all it was time to go home A.K.A time to go to Pn. Jun's open house at Taman Sri watan.

The whole time we were going to the bus stop, manda and i were singing our own HEARTLESS parody. xD Totally funneh if you get to hear if for yourselves. Anyhoos, just by luck, there was a bus that was waiting for boarding passengers and we quickly ran across the road to catch the bus and yes, we got on just in time! hehe. The bus was practically full of students that were about to go to Pn Jun's house but none of us knew the way. HAHA! I wanted to be the one leading the way so yeah, i tried my best to walk infront and act all clever. hehehehehe~~~~

When we arrived at Pn. Jun's house, we were welcomed warmly by her guests and her aswell. We saw some of the form 5 students around eating their way through the curry me and tit-bits provided on the table. xD And boy oh boy, her food was DELICIOUS! Not only that, we were very supprised to see that her house was really really big and pretty. It has a very safe feeling to it that just makes the place very cozy. We arrived there at 3pm.

We just ate ate ate and ate like nobody's business. Me, the "tak tau malu" punya person, was like making her house as if it was my own. xD But at some point i stopped because it was really unappropriate of me. Yeah~

The form5 students went by the pn. Rosnah's open house while nadia, manda and I stayed at Pn Jun's to wait for our other class mates (WE ARE SO LOYAL TO PN JUN!) that came like, 2 hours later! The duration of time where we were alone we got to see all the teacher talking and talking. They are really different people out of school! xD. Just as Pn Rahayu came through the door, nadia rushed to greet them, especially Diyana. xD *someone happy la dapat borak with diyana!*

We were chitchatting and yeah, time flew very fast and diyana had to go to another open house so pn rahayu and her left. Soon after, our classmates came!

IN A VERY VERY PACKED car! xD It was hilarious!!!!!!!!!!! There were like 11 people in one car and in the front seat there were 2 people. I was mezmerised by the amount of people that were able to fit into that car. I watched as they came out one by one, taking their own bloody sweet time(if i might add!).

we talked, we laughed and it rained. We were planning to go home but then it was raining so heavily that we decided to stay until 6pm. Puteri, Miera and Syasya came along. Puteri looked gorgeous and sya looked like an old lady with broad shoulders. Her baju kurung had pads! So uglehhh!!!! LOL, my bad.I dont mean to be mean. I'm sorry.

When the rain stopped we were on our way home but suddenly pn.jun's son came to the rescue. xD he drove us to the nilam bus station. So kind of him, thank you. He read our minds, we didn't want to walk. but then it would have been fun to have spent more time with them.<3

that's pretty much it. OH, in the bus manda was doing some weird face expressions that are like totally rediculous. And even while going down the bus she started looking at me with that stupid face expression and made me laugh like a maniac in the bus alone.

14.10.09 Wednesday

Steph, Manda and I were picked to go for a campaign on discipline at SK taman melati. xD

We arrived at the school and was fascinated that the school was actually pretty and the wall was big and luxurious!

The only thing that really spoilt my mood is seeing that stupid SYARIFAH KATAK!(SYARIFAH NADIA)

She accused me of putting a frog in her bag and stuff like that. But i didn't. Til now she still accuses me so i call her syarifah katak because she steals, lies and ..yeah..lies even more! She's not even a good liar! We all see through her!!! She's like, so translucent!

The whole gang of puteri ampang students were showing her faces, giving her the "L" letter. xD and stuff like that. Bla bla bla~

Good day, but could have been better if i didn't see HER.....no!!!!

IT!

12.10.09 Monday

seriously..
my school is so pissin me off!
Some teachers say that our exam is next week(Pn chu), some say its on the 20th or so(pn lini) and on the end of Nov(Pn Jun)

I think puan junaidah's prediction should be right because she says its already confirmed. good, i still have time to prepare. awesome..

Well, there isnt much to write about. I've been happy with myself.

A few days back I made a quiz, "which one of my crazy friend are you?". Good to know that, I actually know alot about my friends. I was shocked when they said that it was accurate. Good to know that I'm a good friend.

Cheerios~

11.10.09 Sunday

Due to the fact that I've been getting bad results for all my life, I've decided to try harder to ameliorate my results.

These pass few weeks, i've been studying like hell on sejarah. Good to know that whatever teacher asks I can answer. <3

9.10.09 Friday

i think i just blew my one and only chance.